Starting over?

Trying to re-create yourself is one of the hardest things a person can ever do. I find myself struggling with it everyday.
This town is like a freakin' black hole though. Anytime you try and do something positive or different, there will always be someone telling you you're stupid or criticizing you for what you are doing right/wrong.
Whatever, I guess you'll find that anywhere. But why do humans have to be so negative towards one another? Why can't someone just UNDERSTAND that someone is doing something for the betterment of themselves?
Music has been keeping me sane lately and keeping me positive, so without that I don't know what I would be doing right now, haha.
It seems to bring out my most extreme emotions; anger, yelling, crying, goosebumps, fist pumping..etc
It's been a real outlet for me, too bad I don't have a band to release all my creativity out on! Oh well.
I've realized lately that bands are kind of a waste of time.. Only in the sense that you lose a HUGE chunk of your life where you could've been going to school, getting ready to have a family or something. I'm not saying if you're in a band you're dumb or something. Nothing like that.
I respect anyone who can have an amazing time making a living off their music, MORE POWER TO YOU! I just think I'll be the 35 year old dude rockin out in his garage with his two sons instead of on tour with some random band.

I've been trying to make new friends; here and there. Be more outgoing, but it is so gosh dang hard! Oh my lord. I can't seem to shake my introverted side!
WHY IS THIS?!
Yah, I don't know either! Haha.

Anyways.. this was random and I wanted to blog because I hadn't done it in a month or so.
Soo uhh.. that's it..

Until next time,
jump for joy!