The Boys After, everything I'm feeling about it

It's been 3 months since I joined my new band, The Boys After. I am having the best time of my life, and have made 4 amazing new best friends with all of them. Well.. 5 including Brian ;] But I feel like there is something missing.. something that we just aren't grasping. Maybe it's the 'cool' MySpace layout.. Maybe it's because we're not playing Warped Tour this year? I don't know..

But what i DO know.. Is that I want this band to work out more than anything in the world.. I am READY to make my life in music. I want it more than anything. I don't drive an hour and fifteen practice up to 4 times a week for nothing. Why do i do it? Because music and these 4 guys are the 'love' of my life as you could say.
I've come to realize that the music industry is a scary place, but it can also be a very friendly place where you can meet AMAZING people! I have had my experience with past bands.. and dont get me wrong.. I wouldn't trade them for the world.. but obviously there was something missing in the older bands i was in. What was missing? Passion! It was the lack of PURE passion!
The Boys After may not have hella money to throw down on legit recordings or whatever.. or we may not be the best lookin dudes on the block, you know? But I just know that me and this group of guys, if given the chance, could kick total butthole at this whole 'music' thing.

I know this sounds ridiculous, but ehh whatever.. It's how i feel.. thats what vlogging is for right?
Maybe its because its almost 4am.. But i would truly like to think that i want this more than anything i have ever wanted.
Ask anyone!
I've given up my job, my girlfriend, my money (im completely broke), time with my family, my car that is now breaking down on me because of long drives to practice.. Don't get me wrong.. i dont mind giving up things for the band, but i do want this to work out!

I guess it's all wishful thinking..
"Wondering what if, is the worst thing there is"

Until next time,
Jump for joy